The tears have started flowing.....not from Hannah, but me.
When push comes to shove, I am a home-body and would rather be in the comforts of my home than anywhere else in the world. I like to travel....as a family. Thinking about leaving Hannah has been increasingly stressful for me. (Please don't take this wrong, we are pumped about bringing Mila home....just wish we could fast forward 3 weeks to going home day!)
I've cried countless times today. Not long bouts, but short bouts. Today as I was fixing Hannah's chocolate milk for breakfast, at church during prayer time, at lunch when my Dad said something about safe travel for Doug and I during prayer, and while rocking Hannah before her nap. I promised Doug I would cry less than twice a day.....guess I've gone over my limit today. I know in my hear that Hannah will be well cared for while we are gone...it just won't be by Doug and I, and that is where I struggle. Doug joked that I have attachment issues. I told him I think it is "detachment" issues more likely. :)
Then today I was curious how full our flights were on Wednesday and thought I would investigate online. After three sites, including United, I couldn't find the flight from DC to Frankfurt and worried a little. I called United, and the nice lady on the phone confirmed the flight for me. One more weight off my shoulders.
I feel like we have so much to do, and yet there isn't that much to do. Most of our things that need packed are in Grandma's bedroom ready to be put in suitcases. I need to determine exactly what I am going to pack for clothes and get them out. It is hard to know if I should do capris or if shorts are accepted in Europe!
Would you continue to pray for us? I know as Wednesday draws near I will be a basket-case. There is no way around it. I love our little one and to think about leaving her breaks my heart. I know once I am in the airport on the first plane, I will switch over to mission mode and be ready to go. Until then is a different story. If you would also pray for Hannah. She has only been away from home 3 nights in the 18 months we have been home. I'm praying she will enjoy every minute with Grandmas & Grandpa's and miss us very little!